Drowning...

i am supposed to do my work
have been procrastinating and being extremely unproductive
and there are two deadlines to be met soon
real soon

haven't been 'praying' for quite some time
i mean
pray with the joss stick like what i used to do back home
used to be very religious
believe the existence of God

at the moment
helplessly, i find no motivation to keep me going
there is nowhere i can find some spiritual reliance
my soul is like straying around...aimlessly
n i wish
i can sustain
for a while more
just...a few more months

i do not know how important and how influential religion can be in one's life
but i know
i do need it
perhaps it is something that can make those unexplainable things sensible
balance all the imbalances in life
i am drowning...

thanks to this few sentences
have been pondering for few days

'Yup. I have faith that you will be able to do it :) We all have challenges thrown at us at different stages of our lives. The post-degree phase is where we are heading towards now...Just gotta tackle whatever is coming with strength and grace.'

trying to be optimistic
but i don't know how long can it last
the positive mindset is indeed significant
but it's like...very fragile
in fear that it can cease anytime soon

'Hope and pray. Those are the two things that I think are vital too.'

Keep fingers crossed
i wish to be fine
things gonna be alright
assure me that
everything is gonna be alright