Love of Siam

the award-winning movie had made my day
in a Sunday morning when i felt miserable and wistful

keep listening to the same song 'Only You' from the movie
in a foreign language which i have to understand the lyrics via reading the subtitles
but i am in love with the song
it's so overwhelming...that i can 'feel' it and it sort of 'touched' my heart
it is indeed a long-lost feeling=)

i doubt if i am being obsessed
with the pursuit of happiness in an incorrect way
being possessive towards things and people
being disengaged with real life
creating my own fantasy with the purest flawless love that may in fact never exist

i wonder
but i am reluctant to discontinue it

having religious belief that
being able to love and to be loved
is a life-long lesson that a lot of people choose to pass over

i am still looking for better reasons (if not some more convincing ones)
if i could find one
and only if i could find one...